LOVE

Recent conversations with a few people have made me reflect upon why I am doing this blog. My tutor, Tim, asked me what I am writing about. I said I am writing about my experiences and what I have learnt from them. This will make me a better person I said smiling! He then asked me why do you feel the need to become a better person. I thought about it and finally understood why I wrote my blog!

I am doing this blog because I have always been the black sheep in my family I feel, but strangely I have never been neglected by anyone in my family so its not that kind of black sheep. I have needed a lot of attention from my mother as I had eczema as a child! Because of that we have a very close bond which I love. But also I think because I got so much attention, when my siblings. I have three :) then got some I was instantly jealous. I was a child that cried every day - several times and I always had a pretty bad potty mouth saying mean things to my family which I now regret so very very much! I think that I am trying to become a better person because of how I behaved as a child. This must be a good thing right?

Sometimes it might be a bit too much! I try to be so very clear about who I love and why to my friends (not all at the time sadly) just because I need to make up for all those years. I am also doing this to my family of course. I need to feel loved and by getting love I need to give (which is so much fun!)

You all should try it actually. To your friends, a family member or a stranger even. Smile, hug or kiss them. Give them a note that says I love you or I am proud of you! Maybe just let them know in some way that you are happy they are in your life and that you respect cherish, like, love, have fun with - anything! I promise you that they will have a really good day because of that and you will feel good about yourself which is always a plus.

Hope you will have a great spring Saturday!

xx